Forgive me..

I have failed in mentioning some of my strongest supporters in all aspects of my life. Close to two years ago when I had my loss. I found myself researching and trying to find an answer to why this happened to me, I came across this little website called Webmd. I typed in miscarriage, all these different links to facts and statistics came up. Along with those links came the "board". For months after my m/c I allowed myself to lurk around. I read story after story, some sounded just like mine, others were beyond tragic. After falling pregnant I joined a new board, this was called ; Pregnancy after loss. Everyone here was holding on to some hope. We were all basically hoping for the best but always knowing that the worst was to come or could come. That if it happened once or twice it could happen again. These women became my dearest friends. It feels so weird to write that because I have yet to know them in person. In October it will be two years since I joined, and I'm so thankful I did.

We come from all walks of life. Some of us newly married, some divorced, some single. All different ages, I think I'm among the younger of the crew. We also have all different backgrounds and we all come from different cities.From WA state to FL and in between.Some of us breastfeed and co-sleep, others bottle feed and cloth diaper .The one thing we have in common apart from our losses & love for our kiddos is mutual respect. Even with so many different types of women in our little group, we've all managed to avoid disagreements. Mainly because we support each other's decisions. We don't dwell on the "mommy wars". While I do believe breast milk is best, I have never and never will judge another mother for her choices.Motherhood is hard enough, our society is already doing that for us. We have fun discussing each others private lives and making fun of lame exes. They have been there through my pregnancy and my child's first year of life, and I hope they stick around for many more. I love those girls.

This July & September I will meet two of them. I already feel like I know them, since I'm closer to them than my "real" friends. I'm so excited to meet them, and to hold those sweet little babies I've seen grow up via pictures.