safe

Is it possible that my child makes me feel very safe?

probably more safe than my parents ever made me feel

I just feel so at peace now

I was a wreck while I was pregnant

I once had a anxiety attack while going to the o.b's

I was driving and I had to pull over and gather myself

I've always been kinda antsy

I think maybe a little OCD

but when L is around

there is no time to be a little crazy

I have to protect him, take care of him

So I feel safe

I know it doesn't make sence but I just do.

Last night i felt uneasy, like it's too good to be true

I started thinking of my extended family

how any day now I'd be hit with horrible news

News of an accident, someone sick, or a death.

I hate that scared in my gut feeling so I got into bed.

L was there next to dad, I lay next to him

I placed his little fist and inhaled his sweet scent

suddenly all is well

and the world isn't a harsh reality..at least for now

How do i know my baby is sick?

Does he behave differently? A little, but something far more unexpected ..HE SLEEPS THROUGH THE NIGHT.. well well, let's not get ahead of ourselves Adri. I'm still co-sleeping with wanting to transition onto his bed due to lack of space.I took Lucas in on friday because he had a serious cough followed by vomit, the doctor said it was mild pneumonia and wanted to keep an eye on it.He was prescribed some anti-biotics and basically a free pass on the whole No-tears approach momma is trying to get him back into his bed. Well Friday night to my surprise we only woke up with coughs not wanting to feed although I know it probably has to do with his body protecting him and wanting more rest outa him. Still, not being woken up to feed is quite a shock. I'd think that if he was sick i'd be up literally ALL night!. Last night he slept 5 whole hours un interrupted followed by a small feeding then back to sleep until 7:30 am when the cough-vomit began again. Not sure if we'll make a habit out of this wonderful sleep but all I want is for him to get better.