safe

Is it possible that my child makes me feel very safe?

probably more safe than my parents ever made me feel

I just feel so at peace now

I was a wreck while I was pregnant

I once had a anxiety attack while going to the o.b's

I was driving and I had to pull over and gather myself

I've always been kinda antsy

I think maybe a little OCD

but when L is around

there is no time to be a little crazy

I have to protect him, take care of him

So I feel safe

I know it doesn't make sence but I just do.

Last night i felt uneasy, like it's too good to be true

I started thinking of my extended family

how any day now I'd be hit with horrible news

News of an accident, someone sick, or a death.

I hate that scared in my gut feeling so I got into bed.

L was there next to dad, I lay next to him

I placed his little fist and inhaled his sweet scent

suddenly all is well

and the world isn't a harsh reality..at least for now